IVE BEEN TERRIBLE ABOUT POSTING!!!

Keeping up with this blog has been pretty difficult! I did need to vent, however, so I have returned!

I was involved in a three car accident on Tuesday. Everyone was okay (thank God).  I'm still all shook up about it! Anytime I close my eyes I see my car hitting the one in front of me, and I think of the smell of the dust from the airbag and the loud alarm-like beeping of my car.  I was unable to move it off of the road, so the police put it in neutral and pushed it out of the way.  On top of all that, it was my second day dealing with some sort of upper respiratory infection which I still have despite the antibiotics I was given by the doctor.

The accident could not have come at a more inopportune time since this month is tight on money as will the next.  I've been very lucky to have such a supportive husband who reassures me that everything is okay, and that we are lucky that only material things were damaged.

I dropped off the authorization form to the body shop today and was informed that the estimator was there at that very moment looking at my vehicle...  fingers crossed that the damage isn't that bad!!!

Experience 25 - Solo Driving!

Last Friday my husband took one of our cars to his friend in Hilton Head Island, SC (about two hours from where I live in Charleston) so that he could fix the starter.  It turns out that the part they had ordered was for an automatic, not a manual like ours.  He had to leave the car there which means I had to drive to pick him up! Joy.  I grabbed the dog and we headed off... okay, so I guess it wasn't completely SOLO driving :)   The drive was a bit more than 2 hours since I like to go the speed limit.  The longest trip before that was to Beaufort, SC.
Two days after that I made another long solo trip- this time no dog - to Columbia, SC for my mom's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM :)

Experience 24 - Journaling

Journaling is not a new experience for me. I've had journals for over 14 years now. After I met my husband about 5 years ago, I stopped consistently writing. I didn't feel like I had the need to pour out my emotions and experiences to a book when I had a supportive boyfriend (now husband) with whom to do so. 

Yesterday I had the day to myself so I did my usual and then decided to listen to some 80s music (foreigner, bryan adams, etc) which made me feel not so great.  In high school which was a very rough time for me, I used to deal with problems by listening to 80s music and forgetting everything after writing about it.  The music brought back some of those not-so-great feelings yesterday.  I cried for a bit, called my best friend to chat, and then continued reading until the hubby came home.  We slept early (sleep is ALWAYS good to me). 

Today I picked up the journals to reread again with a different attitude this time (this time involved sun and a pina colada haha).  I sat reading and regretting.  But alas, one cannot live life in regret! So I'm thinking much more positively today and am writing to sort of catch up on all of the things I haven't written about and how I feel about today.

Anyone else journal in a physical book? or only blogging?

Experience 23 - Father's Day without Dad

First off, I want to thank everyone who commented on my anxiety post with suggestions and support.  It makes me feel less crazy knowing I'm not alone :)

Anyway, this is the first father's day I haven't been able to spend with my dad.  He moved toward the end of last year to Wisconsin, and it feels weird not having any plans to do something with him later today.  NOT EVEN A DINNER.  I sent his card late (Friday) so I'm sure it hasn't reached him yet, but his gift should have gotten there by now.  He loves to cook so my brother and I sent him some wire skewers for the BBQ and a Williams Sonoma gift card. :) I hope he loves it!


HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DAD and HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the deserving dad's out there!

Experience 22 - ANXIETY

Last weekend I had anxiety like I've never had it before... you know that funny feeling you get in your stomach when you feel like something is wrong?

I had it ALL WEEKEND. I think I'm afraid of losing my job. I'm doing well at the job, and I have not had any seriously negative experiences/comment/indication from the doctors that I'm not. I LOVE the job. I think I'm afraid of losing something that I love so much. It's really perfect and everyone I work with is amazing.

This week I started back at work and the anxiety was gone.  It was really strange how it lasted an entire weekend and suddenly vanished.  Has this ever happened to you? Any tips on how to get rid of it? (I've heard exercise is good but I'm so lazy :) )

Experience 21 - The Dentist

I GOT A JOB!!!! I actually started last Monday. And I LOVE IT. It's going to take some getting used to, but I really like the people I work with and having daily interaction with new people. My position is "scheduling coordinator" so I am in charge of keeping the schedule full everyday! It's pretty exciting and slightly challenging and I feel like something new happens all the time. I work alongside the financial coordinator up front, but she was out for my first three days due to a death in the family so I was on my own! I was proud of myself for holding it down, but my coworkers were very helpful and kept asking if I needed help with anything. I feel welcome already.

I've never worked in the medical field before, so this is a great new opportunity for me to explore something different. I am keeping an open mind and am VERY happy. (It doesn't hurt that we're open from M-Th also ;) ) Can't complain about anything!!

Experience 20 - Get MOVIN'!!!

So part of (almost) everyone's New Years Resolution is to get in shape.  I know I want to be bikini ready soon-- even if I am, I'm terribly shy and will prob cover up-- but I want to be ready just in case.  My husband hasn't been playing soccer multiple times a week because of his knee injury, and he continues to eat the same bad foods.  It's now starting to show around his middle and his pants are getting quite tight! We can't afford new clothes now, so it's off to moving our butts!

We started yesterday afternoon with a goal of one hour.  Downstairs we went where we have an elliptical and weight set.  We stayed there for maybe 20 minutes. I felt like I was going to vomit.  We decided to take the exercising outdoors. I rode the bike which was much more managable for a first-day workout and he jogged with Lolita, our pug.  Guess who got tired first?

LOLITA!  Here's the photo:

She looked much more comfortable in his arms :)  We're gonna see how long we last with the working out thing.  Our goal is one hour 5 times a week! I'm excited to see how my body changes to the exercise!

Have a great week everyone!!