Sunday, June 26, 2011

Experience 24 - Journaling

Journaling is not a new experience for me. I've had journals for over 14 years now. After I met my husband about 5 years ago, I stopped consistently writing. I didn't feel like I had the need to pour out my emotions and experiences to a book when I had a supportive boyfriend (now husband) with whom to do so. 

Yesterday I had the day to myself so I did my usual and then decided to listen to some 80s music (foreigner, bryan adams, etc) which made me feel not so great.  In high school which was a very rough time for me, I used to deal with problems by listening to 80s music and forgetting everything after writing about it.  The music brought back some of those not-so-great feelings yesterday.  I cried for a bit, called my best friend to chat, and then continued reading until the hubby came home.  We slept early (sleep is ALWAYS good to me). 

Today I picked up the journals to reread again with a different attitude this time (this time involved sun and a pina colada haha).  I sat reading and regretting.  But alas, one cannot live life in regret! So I'm thinking much more positively today and am writing to sort of catch up on all of the things I haven't written about and how I feel about today.

Anyone else journal in a physical book? or only blogging?

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Experience 23 - Father's Day without Dad

First off, I want to thank everyone who commented on my anxiety post with suggestions and support.  It makes me feel less crazy knowing I'm not alone :)

Anyway, this is the first father's day I haven't been able to spend with my dad.  He moved toward the end of last year to Wisconsin, and it feels weird not having any plans to do something with him later today.  NOT EVEN A DINNER.  I sent his card late (Friday) so I'm sure it hasn't reached him yet, but his gift should have gotten there by now.  He loves to cook so my brother and I sent him some wire skewers for the BBQ and a Williams Sonoma gift card. :) I hope he loves it!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DAD and HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all the deserving dad's out there!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Experience 22 - ANXIETY

Last weekend I had anxiety like I've never had it before... you know that funny feeling you get in your stomach when you feel like something is wrong?

I had it ALL WEEKEND. I think I'm afraid of losing my job. I'm doing well at the job, and I have not had any seriously negative experiences/comment/indication from the doctors that I'm not. I LOVE the job. I think I'm afraid of losing something that I love so much. It's really perfect and everyone I work with is amazing.

This week I started back at work and the anxiety was gone.  It was really strange how it lasted an entire weekend and suddenly vanished.  Has this ever happened to you? Any tips on how to get rid of it? (I've heard exercise is good but I'm so lazy :) )